I haven’t talked about my allergies in a very long time and I do know some of you jumped on this page to follow my allergy journey. The truth is I thought I cured my allergies with reduced stress, self-care, self-love, yoga, essential oils, journaling and of course touching the earth; nature. I was never more confident about anything in my life, that I was one of those miracles of the mind. I trusted my knowledge of the power of the mind and I still trust the mind, a healthy mind can heal I believe with all my heart and soul. I believe everyday will get me closer to healing, but I also believe in winks and nudges and how else can messages be sent our way. My last blog I talked about winks and nudges and I did say with my new learned awareness I would know a sign when it’s given to me and yes this summer I was given a nudge, a reminder that I do have allergies and that’s the reason for my new journey. What was the question I kept asking myself to receive this nudge?
My life is not all glitter and rainbows, but my today is better than my yesterday and I can only bring vision to my tomorrow in how I want that to look, I will believe in myself, my goals and my visions and you can start today as well.
I was given a break for about six to eight weeks, I received no reactions and I truly believed that I was cured. It was just like a big weight loss, we work hard and we wake up skinny and we forget about how hard it was to get to this weight and we give ourselves permission to eat unhealthy foods because now we are skinny, right! Well that’s what I did I challenged my allergies, with one dip in the hot tub, one swim in the pool and I bought myself a couple of cheap synthetic shirts and nothing not a blemish, not a sign of an allergy. I was “cured” I truly believed. I believe the mind is a powerful thing but was I cured?
I started questioning if I gave up on my career to early and if it was something I could return to one day because I was good at it and this is hard, real hard and it takes lots of work. Lots of discipline and self-awareness to figure out and medication is not what I chose, the side effects are greater than the awareness of giving up my triggers. I have no regrets on choosing my natural road to wellness, but I was given the answer loud and clear this summer that the doctors were correct with repetitive exposure I would be back in my industry minimum two weeks and maximum four weeks. So how do I know this?
I was given the nudge I needed, we have all the answers inside of us and around us, no matter what our situation is. I went for a beautiful walk with my beautiful friend who was so generous to give me a gift, I opened up the little box and it was a beautiful sterling silver ring that had a little scripture, on the outside that read “Be the Change” and on the inside it read “You wish to see in the world” and I loved it with all my heart. I put it on my thumb and wore it proudly for three weeks and those words kept me centered, a reminder that my only intention in this world is to make a difference and to help another person to understand their confusion and to encourage that we can be bigger than our obstacles and we can climb that brick wall, shed a layer and be the person we are here to be. Is it going to be hard you are darn right it’s going to be extremely hard, but I put that ring on my thumb and I twirled it with my other thumb and index finger and read the scripture so many times and in a short time I could hardly get a word out, I had brain fog and I’m not sure if this has ever happened to you but it’s horrible. After about two weeks I was googling about little tiny blisters that were coming out on my hand, the first were on my opposite hand and then almost exactly the third week my two hands were full and I thought I picked up a summertime virus, then the morning came when my two arms were full of a rash and as I showed my husband I removed the ring and the blisters underneath were very big and I just knew it was my ring and it reassured myself that repetitive exposure, will be exactly what the doctors said, minimum two weeks maximum four. I was so disheartened and as I write this tears rolls down my cheek because it reassures me that as long as I am in my own environment living my way I’m ok and my choices has to be more careful and my guard will always have to be up. I believed that something given to me with so much gratitude and love would never hurt me, but I was aware that metal is an allergen and most sterling silver has metal in it for weight. I must have forgotten because never once did I think this could or would happen wearing the ring I loved so much and after all I did cure myself. All the blisters were gone in two days and I needed this to happen because I loved this scripture so much it was making me stronger I started thinking again about a tattoo and now that would land me in hospital with no sympathy from no one. My life has changed, but I am not obsessed with my issues. I have learned to be aware and to remove everything from my life that will cost me an attack but we are human and we sometimes forget. I write with a pencil and not a pen, I have a hottub that I choose not to get in, I am aware of my clothing, skincare, makeup and hair products and I promise you may spend time with me and see me itching like I have fleas, but I will not complain because my smile is bigger and brighter than ever and I have emotions now and I can cry and that’s a good thing. Its choices and changes that I have made daily that’s creating the life I have today. Do I worry about finances and paying the bills and the how this will all workout. I sure do, but I gave my how to the universe and let it go and I am doing what I love, creating the life I desire. If you are struggling, exhausted and depressed then you have those options as well. It comes down to choices, awareness, and how you take on obstacles because we lose sight of our visions, dreams, desires and our obstacles can drag our quality of life down. The Question that I keep going back to that has helped me the most… How do you eat an elephant? “One bite at a time” but first you have to be honest with yourself and want to take that first bite.
My summer allergies or struggles were real and as I’m writing this, not many were aware because it didn’t stop me from Joy, Love, and Peace. My pictures this summer are a reflection of my happiness. I had a totally different smile. My smile today is brighter, more joyful and real. I am everyday finding my inner beauty and loving life and I promise you can find this beauty as well and when you do it will magically transform your outer beauty and you will reach your dreams, desires and ambitions.