Why Black & White… little Vintage… Why not Color?
I had a vision, of going back in time…. I feel everyday can go from black to white or white to black. Some of my days, I feel as if I am standing and looking in at the world and it’s kinda scary for me because what I see is myself. I was that person who wore lots of hats, who worked 10-12 even 14 hour days, raising a child, being a wife, daughter, sister, cousin, aunt, friend and a boss. I hated being a boss, but you all get the picture. I was overwhelmed and exhausted, and no matter how overwhelmed or exhausted I would be, I would always say yes to all people, places and things. My success was measured on all the wrong reasons. I was racing through time making a living but forgetting to make a life. I was lucky that I was given a second chance, some of us never get a second chance. I am so grateful!
I sit and wonder about this second chance I was given, how was I so lucky? Just the other day I was sitting in a waiting room and I opened up my ibooks and looking at me was the book that awakened me to, I am a workaholic. My medical doctor seen this, she is who recommended me the book,” When the body says No”. This book is stories of people who are given medical signs but ignore them, get a quick fix, take meds and move on, until one day their body gives up and says, no! Enough is enough! As I read the stories I realize so many signs that I ignored and as I feel scared I also feel grateful that my body shut me down with allergies. As I am sitting in the doctor’s office reading those stories, I look around and wonder about the stories of those people sitting and waiting. I wonder what have brought them to the doctor that day and are they ignoring something deeper than their illness. I do not recommend this book unless you are burning the candle at both ends. How will you know this? I believe if you stop and listen to your own thoughts and your words you will know, or if others are admiring you for all you do, after working long hours, chances are, you are living two lives with not enough rest. My doctor recognized this and knew I was heading in the direction of a diseased body and cutting my life short of a long life. My doctor wrote the name of this book on her prescription pad for me and I promised, that I would read it. This book confirmed for me that I had to make changes or I wouldn’t be here for my son, grandchildren or any of my loved ones. I remember being at work, working long hours and daily reassuring myself that when I have grandchildren, I would have more time and I would enjoy them. That’s how I would get through my days, believing that I would be deserving of a life someday. How sad!
We all need prescriptions to guide us to natural health.
This is why I went black & white for two reasons, my problem has sent me in a different direction of the way I was living and most autoimmune diseases has a way of doing this. So my life daily is black & white, extremely good or extremely bad but I have learned to take the good and believe that nothing but awesome is coming my way and I have learned to stop and look at my bad days and learn valuable lessons in those bad days. It’s rewarding to get something and feel something out of every lesson. I have learned this from my yoga practice. Today, looking in at the world I keep looking at myself in so many people and I fear for their storm. I wanted this to be vintage because I believe we have to go back to more simple living, touch the earth more, eat a wholesome diet with lots of berries and move in nature off busy streets and learn to breathe.
Follow me and let’s do this together, let’s learn together how to live a healthier, happier and a more simple life. Live for today, and fill ourselves up with self-love and learn to love the person in the mirror.
Angela