My truth is I have Allergies! I finally admit it! I stepped into denial the day I was told that I had to walk away from my career, business and the many people that I loved because of Allergies! and I fought every day to heal myself from this unknown condition to me, but I couldn’t tell anyone that I had allergies without explaining that I had worked hard and became overwhelmed, exhausted and lost my true self. With lots of dollars and hard work I truly believed I cured my allergies. I went one year with not a sign of an allergy! No cream, no medication, and no suffering! This spring past I was on a huge vibration and life was good! My coaching business was showing interest and Reiki was becoming more than I was ready for! All good hey! What happened?
I received a phone call back in May past and this call changed my thoughts forever. I believe it was my wake-up call. Are you interested in going back to work? With no thought, I said, “yes”. Off I went and the last thing I thought of was my allergies until the sixth day of working before my day off. My brain became fuzzy and I could hardly hear my coworkers and OH, boy did I ask non-intelligent questions. My fog brain was back!
The world of fog brain is inscribable and unless you experience it, it’s hard to truly know. By this time, I was feeling like my world was spiraling out of control once more and I knew it was not going to be good.
I returned to work on the eighth day after gagging brushing my teeth because my body knew it was in an unsafe environment, but I pumped myself with allergy pills and pulled on my ears until they popped and off I went. I knew that day to call for a doctor’s appointment and that was exactly what I did but it would be three weeks before my appointment. Waiting the days out, each day my ears became worst and worst and I became more and more challenged. Rubbing cortisone cream on my arms and popping pills waiting to see the doctor and as you all know this was not my practice at my worst. I remember one day not being able to pick out a phone number or postal code because I could not hear and I found myself apologizing for my allergies. I went in the bathroom at work that day and I took one look in the mirror and I admitted for the first time that I have serious allergies and my doctor and specialist is right!
I walked into my doctor and sat down and asked her to clean out my ears because I am completely deaf and she could hear it in my voice. She asked me what was going on and I explained that I had a job. She was not surprised that I was suffering from allergies considering I was now working daily with textiles, leather, dust and mostly the exposure of chemical gas (major toxin and allergy for me). My reports were true I would last maximum three months and it was three months and I am miserable once again. I asked my doctor for medication… the first time since I became sick in 2014. I was scared! My ears hurt and I couldn’t hear!
My doctor advised its time to give up this job as soon as possible! I put my notice in that night! It would take maybe up to six weeks for the inflammation in my ears to heal. It’s almost three weeks and still, my ears ache.
The truth is I controlled my allergies being in my safe environment daily, but I didn’t heal them and that hurts because I truly believe that self-love can heal!
I still believe that self-love can heal when you go back and remember your true roots and accept and forgive and start loving yourself first. It can heal your mind, body, and soul. Being true to your own values and practicing self-love rituals daily can magically ripple out into the most important areas of your life. You will find that your health will improve, your relationships will become stronger, your smile wider and your debt will disappear because material things will mean less and your spiritual path will help you look at obstacles differently, it will quiet your mind and help you to move with intention and this has been my biggest lesson, loving myself has been my gift in my healing of my allergies.
My belief is self-love is healing and self-love has been my gift and it can be yours as well.
It was my beliefs, my values and my truths that I wasn’t aligned with … I’m a better person to be true to myself and not say, why me?
“Smooth roads never make good drivers, clear skies never make good pilots, problem-free life never make strong persons, so do not ask life Why Me say Try Me” -unknown
This is my truth why I was missing in action for three months, but today I am on the other side and now I know I’m not a fraud, I do have a severe condition of allergens, but I can control it and my daily practices are and will be my life now and every day has to be different because my body hates repetition. It’s my life and it could be worst. So, Do I know my future? None of us knows our future!
What lessons have I learned?
- Live today as if it’s your last!
- kiss your lover as if it’s your first and last kiss!
- Love your loved ones and know the importance of each and every one of them!
- Look up always because that’s where your wishes and dreams are among the stars!
- Smile at each person you meet and smell the air often!
- If life gives you lemons make lemonade!
- Love people more than you love things!
- Remember who you are!
- let go of all the old stagnated energy that has filled up your body and replace with your own beautiful energy!
- I am worthy and never allow others to make decisions for you, your heart knows best!
- I am ok with my truths of myself, my business and the world in general!
These are my lessons and I may never be what some would call normal, but I will always have goals, fear, and love on my side and I will understand love, I will fight fear and my goals will not become wishes they will become my reality, my vision, and my purpose. I have greatness within and I’m the chosen one to show the world my greatness!
” Where your focus goes, your energy flows, focus on what you want, where you are going, and what you are actively creating”. – les brown
love and light,
Angela