Did I ever write about how I fell in love with the person in the mirror, I do know I wrote how I was going to fall in love with the person in the mirror in 2015?
That was my 2015 goal, I vowed I would fall in love with the women in the mirror and stop bad mouthing, criticizing, and being abusive. How many times would I stand in the mirror and say, Why? Why can’t you be like everyone else? Why are you always having to write a paragraph when people are looking for a sentence or even one word? Why don’t you use the F word everyone else do? Why are you different? You just walked away from the one thing that you are good at, are you crazy? What’s wrong with you? And then it went deeper into what was looking back at me, my face, my features, my extra pounds I was carrying and more then I wish to share. I was not beautiful anymore, but I did believe I once was, so what happened because now I am a lost soul, that happens to be haggard, stressed, wore out and my hair is thin, my smile is a frown and I am wearing that frightful unhealthy mask and I just want to remove. The feeling for me is the same feeling I get when I see others wearing this mask. I just want to walk up to them remove it and tell them that they are beautiful, loving and perfect and hug them tight until my love pours into their soul. But now I am wearing this mask with all those unhealthy thoughts being abusive, saying to myself what I could never ever imagine saying to another person or for sure to my little self as a beautiful child. How did I fall in love with myself this little girl in the picture in 2015?
Finding that light and self-love in your soul will help you shine externally; your outer beauty and the mirror will be your friend.
This little girl in the picture that I had taken out of my grandmother’s frame, I posted it and eventually it landed on the front page of my journal and I realized I could not say those unkind things to this little girl. I encourage you all to find a baby picture of yourself and put it in view of a mirror sight. This was only one of the things I did. I did mirror work, I taped little sticky notes with I AM ________ all over the house. I trained myself to smile, yes I did! 20mins a day. I listened to Podcast, Video’s and surrounded myself on social media and in public with others that were confident and truly loved themselves. I learned knew skills of self-awareness through yoga and meditation and vision work. It was a huge self- discovery journey that I went on, but I had limiting beliefs and you may agree. Do you agree that loving ourselves were taught to us as a selfish act?
We were taught that people who loved themselves were all about themselves, they were selfish and they couldn’t think of others, nothing but themselves. This is so not true. I inspire to love myself, be kind to me, be-happy because I am a better person for that. I can give more joy, love and peace to others and things, more gratefulness. My intention is not to hate anyone and I do not want to hate myself because I am proud of my courage to be present… What have I learned by falling in love with myself?
Falling in love with myself has not been how I envisioned it, it is better! It do make me nervous because we still receive those days when someone opens their mouth and challenges your hard work, your beliefs and I am still that little white blonde beauty with blue eyes and a big smile with a free spirit that is still curious and loves to study people, remembers her dad’s cuddles and the nickname BOO because she couldn’t say, you, curious to know what everyone else is doing but would hide in a shy cocoon when others were around, but every now and then will burst out and unexpectedly shine and say,” here I am world!” I am awesome, loyal, kind, and loves adventure and the one thing that lights my heart up and encourages me more to keep going is the feeling that I get from joy, love and support and I wish more than anything that peace could be on earth. I wish that everyone could be freed from anger, ego and stubbornness and just love and be grateful for our loved ones. I today look in the mirror and say I love you, you are doing an awesome job and it’s not your responsibility to have everyone love you or to love each other, but do keep moving forward and spread your message and be the change you wish to see in the world.
Please look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are awesome and if you cannot do that with a whole heart reach out to me for a chat because I do understand and I hold this topic so dear to my heart and please share because this message may help someone. I can honestly say, all human beings are beautiful in my eyes. I have seen lots of beauty over the years because I had the best job in the world, I was in control of enhancing true outer beauty and today I am delighted to help others enhance their inner beauty because I know it will magically transform their outer beauty. Finding that light and self-love in your soul will help to shine externally; your outer beauty. I am gifted in seeing the beauty in everyone and making others feel good. I just thought everyone did this, but apparently it is my purpose, my gift. I am the luckiest girl in the world!
Angela